Heartbeat Weekly (18)

Posted by Jessi (Geo) on 2 March, 2014 | 14 Comments



I only got one book this week, and to tell you the truth I’m too lazy to take a picture of one book by itself. So I will include it in next week’s post!


 Honestly, blogging has been…daunting…lately. I really struggled with it this past week; to tell you the truth, there were a couple days where I was feeling like it’s all kind of pointless. I’ve put so much work, so much time, and so much effort into this blog, and for what? Does anybody even care what I have to say? Are my discussions a waste of time? I feel like I’ve tried so hard lately to be original and stand out, yet it still means nothing. How many people actually know who I am? Will I ever compare to esteemed bloggers that everybody in this community knows and looks up to? I’m ashamed to even share these thoughts with you guys, but I need to get it out. I am disappointed (in myself) that I feel this way, because that is not why I blog and I don’t know why I’m suddenly dwelling on these things. And because I’ve been feeling negative about it, it hasn’t been any fun this week and I’ve been thinking about taking a hiatus. I don’t want to quit by any means, but maybe I just need to take a step back for a while to clear my head. Who knows. Nothing is official yet, but if these feelings don’t go away in the next week or two, that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll let you guys know when I figure it out.
I do want to thank those few of you who I know do care, the ones that have stuck with me through everything. I really appreciate you.
Not gonna lie, I’ve been feeling kind of low lately, which I think is what led to my blogging apathy. I think it’s this awful weather that’s depressing me. Hopefully a week in warm, sunny Florida will help!

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Jessi (Geo)

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14 Responses to “Heartbeat Weekly (18)”

  1. You shouldn’t be ashamed, Jessi! I feel that way all the time. I also always go around commenting on blogs, trying to make friends, but I doubt that these people will remember me the next time I comment. I also feel that people just skim through my posts or maybe just read a paragraph out of five. It makes me feel like I’m not a memorable person. I know that not everyone will become really known bloggers, but I think it’d be nice if, say, there are even ten people out there who’re interested in all the stuff I post.

    Totally random, but I like it when the weather’s bad! The sun hurts my eyes and skin, so I love the rain. But it’s wayy too sunny here in the Philippines right now. :/

  2. Awww Jessi, these feelings are no good! I definitely care about your blog, and I know I’m not alone. I think everyone has sort of been feeling all out of the loop lately between the weather and the drama and everything else. I’ve seen so many people on hiatuses or just disappearing that I think we’re all in need of a picker-upper.

    You do what’s best for you. If you think taking a hiatus will help you, do it! No one will hold it against you and we will eagerly await your return. I mean, look at me, my hiatus was over a month long! But it was so worth it because today is my first official day back and I feel good. I’ve been commenting on blogs, writing posts, and I just have a new energy about it all. I hope if you do decide to take a break you do the same.

    And you know, if you ever want to just rant or talk things out or need a friend, you can always email me. Sometimes it just feels good to put it out there and realize you’re not alone. <3

    Anyways, I love you and your blog and I hope you feel better! You're amazing :D

  3. It sucks that you’ve been feeling this way Jessi, because to me, you are actually one of those esteemed bloggers! I’ve been following you for a while and when I first started you were one of those ‘big blogs’ to me – and you still are. I truly hope that you will find your enjoyment back. I think that a hiatus might work for you :) *hug* You matter to me and I know to a lot of other bloggers!

  4. I definitely understand how you feel Jessi, I went through that last year during my blogging slump. If you need to take a hiatus, let yourself do so and just take some time away to think about the direction you want your blog to take. It will do wonders! Don’t be ashamed either of feeling this way, we’ve all been through this sometime or another and we understand how it feels. Ride this out <3

  5. I can understand, it feels like I rush through reading because I want to blog them, but really, what is this all for? I have kinda changed my mindset that I am blogging for me. If people read, that is pretty cool, but if not, this blog is for me! Hugs!
    Missie @ A Flurry of Ponderings

  6. *HUGS* I hope you get out of your life/blogging slump soon!! I really, really enjoy visiting your blog and I’m sure I’m not alone :) BUT if you need some break from blogging I say take it!!

    And yes, gloomy weather is sooo depressing!! Luckily, spring is slowly crawling its way here. And you lucky girl enjoy Florida!! <3

  7. Jessica @ a GREAT read

    Oh Jessi, I’m sorry to hear about all that. Blogging should be something you do for you. It should be fun. The moment it loses that enjoyment for you, then yeah, you gotta look at things differently. Do things for you or whatever needs to be done.

    Take as much time off as you need. You know us bloggers, we rarely leave the scene! Hopefully you can find the enjoyment in blogging and reading still.

    Here’s my STS

    Have a GREAT day!

    Old Follower :)

  8. *hugs* I know what you mean about the slump. This might sound pathetic, but I’ve been feeling that way because I feel like my page views are staying the same. Then they plummet every weekend (apparently no one reads my blog on the weekends) and it just puts me in a crappy mood. I feel like I’m not getting any new readers, and I keep thinking, “Am I doing something wrong??”

    Then I’ve been getting stressed because I’ve had so little time for blogging/reading and I’m running low on scheduled posts and I feel like I’m about to fall off a cliff and into a pit of no posts.

    Stupid thoughts, but they’ll really eat away at you.

    For what it’s worth, I love your blog! Though I’m sure you know that. ♥

  9. I think we’ve all felt/feel that way sometimes. It’s impossible not to compare yourself to the “big” bloggers and wonder what it is that you’re doing “wrong”.

    Don’t ever be ashamed of sharing how you feel! If you can’t be yourself on your space, where can you be?

    I know I’m feeling a little low lately, and I’m blaming it on this seemingly endless winter. I actually colored my hair lighter, hoping it would help bring me closer to spring and the sun! Haha

    Whatever you decide, we’ll be here. Don’t stress yourself out over something that’s supposed to be fun. And for what it’s worth, I love your discussion posts! You’re always so honest and to the point; I love that you don’t beat around the bush and that you say exactly what’s on your mind. It’s something I sometimes struggle with, because I don’t want to upset anyone. But then again, I’m not doing this for anyone but myself, so I should never be afraid of being myself.

  10. Aww Jessi I definitely know what you mean! Sometimes I get really annoyed with blogging because I feel like nobody really ever pays attention to my blog on some days, and it’s definitely a little crazy and daunting. I feel like a lot of people struggle with that, but don’t worry Jessi, you’re one of my favorite bloggers because I LOVE your discussion posts and also your Life of a Blogger meme. Whenever I have doubts I often end up taking a step back and just thinking about what I’m doing. Recently I’ve been kind of questioning whether I want to stop blogging or not, because it’s been kind of difficult with life and I don’t know if it’s time for me to move on or not. But I don’t know, anywho, don’t worry Jessi! I really do love your blog and I’m so happy that I’m friends with you, and I’ll support you no matter what :D *hugs*

  11. Jessi, I love your discussions and all of your posts! Your blog is one of my favorites and to me YOU are one of those esteemed bloggers <3 You and your blog are amazing, and it's so obvious how much time and effort you put forth into it! I hope you feel better soon :)

    I hope the warm and sunny weather makes you feel better! I know for anyone that hates winter, this one has been especially terrible!

  12. Sorry you’ve been feeling down Jessi. I think this weather has everyone down in the dumps lately. Sometimes a break is much needed. Hope you find your fire again and I will support you no matter what you choose to do. :)

  13. Slumps are so easy to get into and so hard to get out of. I have them happen more often than I want to admit. Either I get too busy and then feel guilty for not blogging, or else I have a great few weeks and then run out of things I want to post. A hiatus totally can help. So can skipping out on a few posts each week. It’s one of the reasons that I don’t do features on a regular timeline. They have set days, but not a set timeline. It’s basically when I feel up to it. Forcing myself to get content out there results in poor content. I don’t want to be that kind of blogger. I would rather have some dead air and lose a few subscribers than deal with crappy content that tends to come about when I’m trying too hard and my heart isn’t in it. I love your blog. You are one of the few I bother to get email alerts for. Take time out if you need it. Don’t push yourself. You will just make the slump worse and find it harder to climb out of.

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