Those of you who still read my posts have probably seen me talk (okay, complain and whine) about being super inactive lately. It’s been going on for months and months, and I feel like I’ve neglected my blog to the point that it may as well not exist.
And I hate it, for several reasons.
I miss it.
I miss blogging. I miss the blogosphere. I miss all my blogging friends. I miss interacting with bloggers and talking about books. I miss that feeling I used to get from blogging, and I want it back. But I don’t know how. I don’t want it to feel like a chore.
I feel like no one remembers me.
I feel like my blog and myself have kind of just…faded into the background. Into non-remembrance. I feel like Novel Heartbeat doesn’t stand out because there’s rarely ever any content. And it breaks my heart.
I hardly get any interaction.
This is kind of a catch-22. I don’t get much interaction, because guess what? I don’t interact much. It’s a sad cycle. And it’s my fault. But I just haven’t had the time, or the motivation, or really even the desire to go visit blogs for months upon months.
I’m out of the loop.
I have NO idea what the blogging current events are anymore. Sometimes I’ll get the gist of something on Twitter, but I never really know what’s happening.
Not to mention, I want to follow new blogs and I don’t even know where to start! (Like, I did this once already, you’d think I’d be able to do it again.) I’ve been inactive for so freaking long that all of my favorite blogs that I loved when I used to blog all the time don’t even blog anymore. It makes me so sad.
It’s hard to re-start.
I’ve been inactive for so long, it’s hard to not be inactive, if that makes sense. I suppose you could say I’ve gotten complacent.
I’m also busy. I have a full time job, a boyfriend, and a bunch of animals to care for. I have an Etsy shop. I have a million other hobbies. Somewhere along the line, blogging went from one of my top hobbies to a side hobby. (Bookstagram took over, honestly.) I also don’t have internet. I’m sitting at the library typing this post because I have limited data on my phone and I’ve almost used my allowance for the month. (I despise this arrangement with the fire of a thousand suns, I’ll have you know.) All of those things just make blogging very difficult. I miss the days when it was easy! *wistful sigh*