Heartbeat Weekly (64): A personal update

Posted by Jessi (Geo) on June 21, 2015 | 15 Comments



Books I got this week

I probably won’t be able to afford buying any more new books for a very, very long time. So I’m kind of on a mandatory book buying ban against my will :(

I’ll probably still do some hauls from the library, though!

Weekly Recap

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Blog news:

If you miss Life of a Blogger, check out Karen’s new feature called Beyond the Books over at KissinBlueKaren, inspired by my old feature!

What I’ve been up to the past couple weeks:

It’s been a while since I posted a Heartbeat Weekly. First of all, I haven’t received any new books for a while, so I haven’t had much to share. Second of all, life keeps trying to knock me down, so I’ve not had time (or desire) to do any blogging.

In the past month it seems like I can’t catch a break. I’ve mentioned the breakup previously, I think. Not a week after that, I got a letter in the mail saying my mortgage was going up $90 a month because my escrow account was short.

I think I mentioned the letter I got from Allstate telling me that they were going to boot me if I didn’t fix my “loose or missing shingles.” After fixing the roof, I ordered an inspection. The guy came out the next week to look at it. A week went by and I still hadn’t heard back from Allstate. I called the following Tuesday – the 9th (keep in mind my deadline was the 12th) – and the lady said they hadn’t got the inspection back yet, but she would call me. This bitch calls me on the freaking 10th – 48 hours before my deadline – and says “You passed the inspection but oh, by the way, your insurance is going up $150 because your home is manufactured.” Because my home magically became a manufactured home since last year? Seriously?! I asked why they were just now finding this out and their excuse was that the original inspector missed it. How the f*ck do you miss that? You can tell just by looking at the house that it’s manufactured. Their excuse for everything is that the guy who started my policy is no longer with them. I told her I needed an extension to shop around, because hellooo, it was their screw up; she told me no, she can’t do that, I would have to pay month by month. I called a couple of places and told them I needed to put a rush on things, explained my situation, and within 24 hours I’d found someone else. I called back and told them to cancel Allstate because I didn’t want to be with an insurance company that screwed up that much and treated me in such a way.

After a lot of stress and bullshit, I finally dumped Allstate and I’m now with American Family. My car insurance will be lower now, anyway.


When it rains, it pours, right? But you know what? I am NOT going to let this break me. I refuse. I will find a way. I always do. Life wants to knock me down, but I won’t let it. I will wash my hands of this bullshit and move on, and I will keep my head above water somehow. I have a loving, wonderful (drama-free) family to support me; I have this big, beautiful house; I have 4 cats and a dog that I love dearly to keep me company; I have books and movies to escape when things are rough; I have all of YOU wonderful people and my amazing Bookstagram community. I have so many reasons to be thankful and I am going to cling to those instead of focusing on the negative. I don’t want a pity party – I know I am strong enough to get through this – but any advice and/or positive thoughts would be highly appreciated! <3

Side note: Skillet’s album ‘Rise’ has been very empowering at this time in my life. I am very grateful to them and all of their amazing and uplifting music!

Break their hold
‘Cause I won’t be controlled
They can’t keep their chains on me
When the truth has set me free

This is how it feels when you take your life back
This is how it feels when you finally fight back
When life pushes me I push harder
What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger

What’s in your mailbox, loverlies? Link me up!

Jessi (Geo)

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15 responses to “Heartbeat Weekly (64): A personal update

  1. Wow, I am so sorry about all of this. It is so sad that a relationship had to end after so long. But it is even worse that he wouldn’t let you guys end things in a civil and respectful manner since I am sure you guys cared about each other for such a long time. I really hope things get better for you.

  2. Wow. I didn’t realize how deep this ran. I knew you were having a nasty fight with your ex, but this just sounds soo stress inducing. I really hope things start getting better for you. Unfortunately, I have no advice myself because I’ve never been in such experiences, but I will keep you in my thoughts Jessi!

  3. Breaking up is always hard, but a fighting break-up is even worse. He has no right to say those nasty things to you. Even IF you would have a new boyfriend by now, that would be your business. I really hope he will turn around and give you your rightful money back. Take care girl, you are definitely strong enough and you will get out of this.

  4. I’m sorry to hear what a rough time you’re having. It sucks that you’re being treated the way you are by your ex, unfortunately people deal with things in different ways.

    I hope things begin looking up for you soon, it’s good that you’re trying to stay positive too.

    On a sidenote: SKILLET! How could I have forgotten about them? I used to love them, but I’ve probably not listened to them in a couple of years.

  5. Some people just SUCK. But hey-that’s why he’s an EX right? At least when things settle down a bit more you never have to worry about him again! I hope everything works out for ya-I can only imagine how stressful it is to figure everything out.
    Also- Jurassic World! Yay! About time lol.

  6. I’m really sorry about all this Jessi! D:
    The only way I can think of that you can get your 2k back is to bring him to court, especially if you have the documents (text messages count) and/or witnesses proving that he owes you that money. I’ve been watching real life Court shows lately – they are my newest obsession – and if you have the proof and the witnesses, you’ll definitely win and he’ll definitely have to give you your money back then.
    Sending you all the positive thoughts and energy! <3

  7. I’ve been in similar situations with money things piling on. And my escrow account is causing my mortgage payment to go up $40 a month, which isn’t the same as yours, but still a lot for me. I go to the movies alone quite often. But I don’t dress up or anything, I just go and be comfortable. :-) But I say if you want to wear makeup, that’s what you do, everyone does what they want. This guy sounds like it is a good thing he’s out of your life. Especially if the comment I see on here is him. Why is he stalking you? What a jerk. Keep your chin up, and blog when you feel like it. Don’t let it become a drudge.

  8. PHEEEEW, Jessi. I’m so sorry to hear you’re dealing with all this bullcrap, but I am so happy to hear you are not letting it bring you down! I can’t believe he is giving you so much grief, but you go girl! Make-up does not mean you are out with a new boyfriend – it means you want to feel good about YOURSELF, and you’re allowed to feel that way, on any occasion.

    I’m so sad I feel like everyone has seen Jurassic World except meeeee! I totally would’ve went with you. I’m only like an hour away I think ;D Haha! Keep your head up! Sending good vibes! <333

  9. Jessi, I’m so sorry to hear about what has been going on. Stay strong girl, you will get through this! Your ex doesn’t deserve you; you’re a brilliant, kind and wonderful lady and he has no right to be nasty or pour false accusations on you. Love yourself, and do things that make YOU happy. Screw him and what he thinks! We’ll be here for you Jessi, don’t let him torment you. You WILL get through this rough time! :)

  10. erinf1

    Jessi – something for you :)

    “A success woman is one who can build a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at her”

  11. I am so far behind on life and I seem to have missed most of what happened, but that doesn’t matter. You and the boy broke up and you are hurting and healing. That is the important part.

    But it will be alright.

    It won’t be easy. It will be hard as hell. Two years is a lifetime in your early twenties. Hell, I was divorced at 22. I thought my world was ending and never would be the same. You are already so much stronger than I was. You will get through this. You will separate your life from him and find your niche again. You got this.

  12. JESSI OH MY GOD I’M SO SORRY I DIDN’T EVEN NOTICE. I’VE BEEN TOO CAUGHT UP IN MY OWN LIFE :( I don’t think you’ll let this break you. Your strength inspires me, after all ;)

  13. Sam

    Jessi, that’s awful. I’m so sorry you’re going through all of that. Break ups can be nasty! I’m sure you’ll get through this rough time and be stronger and happier for it! Stay positive!

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